Wednesday, March 24, 2010
4:03 AM
Four months of missing out what I love doing the most. :) It's like I'm pulling out my writing mojo out from a dusty old box. Another semester ending just like greased lightning; it is how love flies with time like a jet plane.
I have nothing much to say, unnecessary for others to apprehend, I presume. There is just a certain urge bursting out of me begging the whole world to open its ears as I sound off how much I love youhooo! :)
Jennifer Elaine Castro-Lizardo, I don't know what has gotten into me, but all I know is that I'm madly, deeply, and crazily in love with you. I won't give out reasons why I do, 'cause true love is merely an instinct. :)
xD I love you, Jen!
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Saturday, October 10, 2009
9:46 PM
What a shame in your part getting mad in a speculative ground. I bet you'll be constantly silent once you find out who are the people behind your roaring confidence. I just love how irony turns the table for retards like you. You wanna get verbal? I'll give you hell until you are sorry. I pity you for your unstable behavior, I wonder how long can you hold your composure. Things like what my friends did to you are just too shallow to get mad about.
What is up with your sharp tracking look at me feeling that I would be intimidated? Fuck yourself, I'm too mature to risk my capping/pinning opportunity to respond with an unruly behavior. Tang ina be mature. Wala ka na sa high school. You know I have the guts to say these words 'cause it was not my fault. Di ako mapanggagong tao. I just didn't want to reveal those people. But if that would make you breakdown and be sent to the psychiatric ward, be my guest. Sabihin ko sayo kung sino. That wouldn't be necessary I think. Dito pa lang pahiya ka na eh. Diverted na galit mo. Goodluck.
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Tuesday, September 1, 2009
2:44 AM
One fact I would want to drill into that puny brain of yours: I'm not in any sort of rat race with you. How ironic for you to think despair would be looming in my way. Fuck your way of stepping on my shadow and FUCK your opportunities of getting into my business just to impress her. Tang inang pag mumukha yan, baku-bako parang dinaanan ng pison. I hope you'd get the chance to read this as I await the chance of further damaging that dirt-infested nose of yours. Di ako mang-mang para paringgan. You should've been slicker getting the job done. For the record, if I were really into a competition with you, you'd probably be lying down, drunk thinking that you were me as what you did before. Pasalamatan mo pa nga ako tinutulungan pa kita nung una. Tarantado. Tss. N.G.S.B kasi. Retard. Karma ain't done with you yet, boy. With that face of yours you still had the nerve to court to girls at same time? Tang amang yan oh. I wish you won't fail on this one. I'm not being sarcstic 'cause I know what the outcome is anyway. Buy me a bag of chips as I watch you go down, down, in a much earlier round. =)) Ass.
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Tuesday, June 30, 2009
10:49 PM
Here I am, resuming my patterned life. I reckon with everyday as a devaju, wishing I could press fast forward, but then utterly living the fun and different days in line as a student. Nothing in particular I want to say. I'm just being pushed off the plank by my blog itch. Let me at least share some necessary matters: My mom's coming home this December and I'm quite excited about it. She's bringing along Connor, my little brother whom I badly miss as well. :D .....And yeah, we're planning to move somewhere near Makati I think. I wish it'd be the best for the whole family. Quite short, eh? It gives a dramatic sense to end my story as such.
Urge fulfilled. Bye.
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Monday, May 25, 2009
5:15 AM
Pete and I were having a little chat and then he randomly opened up a topic concerning Sasha Grey (a quite young, yet well-known porn star). Likewise, he shared a youtube video of Sasha wherein she appeared as an interviewee on Tyra Banks' talk show. I'm completely aware of the things going on in the porn industry, though having someone who does the real "job" reveal and affirm what you think leads to a sad and obviously, a shocking epiphany. I guess being the judge of what she does for a living, which is non of anyone's business, buries you under disturbing, circling thoughts.
I'm into porn like many boys around my age with raging testosterone levels. It's just that when you have this kind of moment (grasping beyond the effects of pornography), the mere point to ponder (even if it's quite "bothering" in the contrary) is that promotion of dehumanization is being uplifted.
I have great respect for girls who are deserving of it. I just hate how other people conclude with hasty generalizations (that sounded a bit tautological xD). Yeah sure Sasha is a young porn star who can earn money even if she hasn't been hooked up with pornograpy. She said it herself, it is merely what she wants to do for a living. I speak on behalf of other women getting into this kind of thing. Not all of them wholeheartedly accepted the path of pornography or should I say, dehumanization? Some may be in desperate need of money, but I won't eliminate the fact that some also are just in for pleasure or they are just sickly plagued by their narcistic nature. If the opposing question, "so why do other women not quit after earning money to start a new life?" comes to your mind, it's probably because they have started the journey and that nothing can change their past. The process of dehumanization has started anyway, at least they could earn more.
Wooooooo. xD Sorry. I just pity those whose dignity were taken away. I don't blame them, they actually give me pleasure. HAHA xD
It's the eve of my birthday's eve. Haberday bukas Peter!
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Sunday, May 3, 2009
6:47 PM
Being in the middle of a misapprehended jive feels worse than being the culprit. I have delved into a deep hole of anger bearing the ironic feeling of NOT having these two persons buried twelve feet under. Even if the devil got upright on their shoulders, they are my friends and I would never fail to be on their side.
If the joke was not played on a person who has low self-esteem, things would not have gotten far worse than expected. I feel how traumatic the incident was being in our helper's shoes. What pisses me off though, is the fact that she gets acquainted with my friends every time I host a sleep over. By the same token, this was not the first time my friends and I got into drinking at home.
For us to be logical, let's bear in my mind these facts before I narrate what happened:
(P and V VS Ate maid) *Me at # 5
1. P and V often joke about ate, but for real, they are disgusted to even imagine either one of them having sex with her.
2. As said earlier, ate knows them and how they act.
3. FUCK -_-" As said by my tita, whom eventually ate told the incident to, it was her VIRGINITY that was threatened. OH GOSH.
4. I believe seeing something is a better proof. Ate only heard their provocative jokes. She was inside the master's bedroom trying to push back the door as she thought they were planning to barge their way inside. How could she be so sure about them attempting to rape her? I can't even imagine.
5. I was too sedate so I fell asleep. I was unconscious when the incident happened. Okay I maybe elevating the innocence of one side, but again they are my friends. I know how they act when drunk. It's far from their scope of kagaguhan to touch a katulong.
Let's proceed to what happened. I was asleep, I didn't know what was happening. How tautological. P and V went upstairs to give ate a May 1 fool's day. They were banging the door while shouting foul statements. Ate thought they were desperate to fuck her brains out so she brought a knife with her (safety first). P and V gave her a huge feeling of fright going on with their prank. Ate had enough and pierced through a small space under the door with her kitchen knife to scare them off.
Gahhd I thank Rocky for calling them. Ate thought it was my tito's voice who was calling their attention so she had the confidence to open the fucking door making P and V to rush back to my room.
Here is my theory. P and V knew it was Rocky's voice who called their attention. Plus, it was said in a teasing tone! Ate thought it was some sort of a rescue but it was not. So that means, if P and V were really desperate to give her one hell of a night, they would have gone inside the room and started fucking her! To think that it was even ate who made them run back to my room as she opened the door marks a conclusion that it was really a joke. C'mon. My friends being desperate to bone a maid? I bet they would even resort to fuck each other. She can bring along her virginity to her grave.
Despite being on the side of my friends, I'm really sorry for what happened. I hope it was really a joke matched with the devil's spirit. I just feel pushed off the edge because of my dad's hasty generalization. Yes it's a fallacy. Even if I hang out often with my barkada there is still a distinct quality of behavior running in our friendship and of course, in each one of us. I would never engage in such a disgusting act and everybody knows how I behave in a different setting.
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Tuesday, April 14, 2009
5:03 AM
I was watching Dr. Phil probably an hour ago and I was just shocked as I witnessed the things going on in the show. Basically, the argument was between a soon to be bride and her hopefully accepted although would be technically and of course officially mother-in-law. The dilemma was about the girl banning her betrothed's mother from their wedding. Although the girl was pretty hot, I would stand for her mother-in-law's side. As how I see the case, the root of all of these fall-outs is resentment or misapprehension. They were both wrong for verbally fighting back and forth through e-mails and text messages. The mother was just a bit pushy of her role, arranging the wedding at first and stuff like that until they enganged into a small quarrel. I understand how the girl would really get pissed off, but verbally abusing someone is like taking away his/her dignity. My dear, when it's your time to be the mother-in-law you will surely be feeling guilty. Moving on, the mother had every right to answer back. After Dr. Phil read out some of the quoted statements both parties have thrown out to each other, the more settled person (the mother of course) reacted with words that were noticeably reasonable and with more composure as she explained why her grudge blew out as worse intentions (as words) over her son's fiance. She stood up for what she said for she knew it was the truth. I got excited when I saw the girl trembling inside because of guilt.
In my perspective, bitch, you should've been a bit more understanding and less aggressive. You started the fight and even if the dilemma has not claimed a winning conclusion YET, I see it as your loss. With all due respect, your boyfriend's mom has every right to continue her role. It does not change anything but it's only a transition of her role as a mom. You have made your boyfriend hate his own mom, the one who has RAISED him.
Your devastation backfired as it became the cause of your shame. I may be a bit bias conveying my point of view. You won't get the chance to read this anyway. I just want this to be made known.
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