Confusing it may seem when you're caught up in "sedate" situation when all thoughts running in your mind are given a chance to shout and when it is made known, (as a factual happening) the victim is stuck with two perspectives, either one is just being concerned with another or his hidden grudge is finally breaking out from its shell. For the sake of extra-curricular-ity and my wanting to include it, when the momentum has been unconsciously started for a random teammate, he now takes advantage and start screwing another teammate which is not usual. And for the record, I was and I think I'm still in the team.

As much as you love your friends, there are really times you feel pushed off the edge, slightly knocking down your composure. We can't blame them for simply being them 'cause we all have our differences and unlikeable egoes. Well I'm a jerk. I'll tell you something you don't know the next time xDDDDD So just strive for what's worth it. And when I say something worth it (at least for this particular entry), this means not breaking up friendships doing whatever it may take. That's what I've been doing. Even if I get pissed off, out of partiality for my friends, I get back up to join the team.

I just wish my pre-nuked year won't end up nuked still. I must confess, yes I'm in love with my own sins. Not the idea that I love the girls whom I sleep with (I'm still "pure" as you know) but inferring to the idea that I've made the same mistake...again.....again. Don't get me wrong, hurting someone is not my thing. I just wanted to use the expression since it's my unfaltering deed.

All who are included here, I just want you guys to hear out my apology. I've been a jerk all my life and I can never commit as it is my curse. I hope someday, I'll be the one feeling afflicted just to refresh my past lesson.

Got A Life Then
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